Tired of the fight

Using your words and gifts in battle

Is there anyone else out there who’s just tired of fighting? I know I am. I’m not even talking about a physical fight but I’m talking about when you have to fight things in life that a punch or kick won’t fix. Like the fight for your mental sanity, your happiness, your peace, your reputation, your good name, your faith, your family relationships etc.

Many times we just want God to speak to our issues and resolve them all at once. In these past two years I think we can all say we’ve been in a fight to keep or maintain something. Battling to maintain has become a new normal. So much uncertainty due to the effects of the pandemic has given many of us anxiety. I say “us” because I too have suffered from anxiety. Some days anxiety, depression, and some of everything is happening in my mind and in my emotions.

It can be very discouraging when every day you wake up you feel you are putting your best foot forward and have nothing to show for it. It can be even more discouraging when you feel like you are trying to do right by others and they don’t hesitate to do wrong by you. In my schooling, my career, and even in my personal life I have felt overwhelmed by the uncertainties that lie ahead. There are days when I just don’t feel like fighting for it anymore. I don’t want to fight for my career, my peace, my health, or my business, but if I don’t fight for it, who will?

The Every Day Battle

We have to learn that our journey and our story is ours to fight for. The enemy would love to see you surrender in defeat, but you must keep going. I am learning that when I keep moving and pushing, I am walking my way into a victorious win. No matter how small the steps are you  take, don’t be still. Progress no matter how small, is still progress. Think of it this way. Every time you choose to have peace is a punch to the enemy. When you choose to exercise or eat right, that’s a victory. Every time you wake up and do your affirmations, that’s a kick to the enemy’s head. When you decide to go apply for that job, that business loan, that mortgage or whatever it is you are in pursuit of, you are operating in faith and the enemy hates that.

When you decide to speak life over your relationships, your finances, your emotions, you are speaking against defeat. So if I can encourage you to do anything, I will encourage you to DO IT ANYWAY! There will always be setbacks, naysayers, and adversity but pursue what you want anyway. Fight for what you deserve. God has not given you the spirit of fear. Go after it and keep fighting. Use your words and giftings to keep moving. A few ways I do this are:

1. I write on this blog.

This blog encourages me when I write it. I have found that it also encourages others. When I use my gifts like writing and encouragement I gain hope and my faith is strengthened. I get blessed while I’m trying to bless somebody else. Somebody might be saying, “why is she writing? Who is she? Nobody wants to hear what she has to say.” But when I decide to write anyway, I AM VICTORIOUS.

2. I sing.

I love singing! It is therapeutic for me. Whenever my spirit starts to feel heavy, I begin to sing a song of praise. And not to toot my own horn, but I can sing. I emphasized that because it is one of the gifts God has given me and I use it in spiritual battle. My praise and worship is my weapon.

3. I write out plans and affirmations.

I find that making a list, writing the vision plainly, gives me hope. This may sound crazy, but it brings my thoughts, plans, and dreams from an imaginary place in my head to the natural realm. It is brought to life and realized on paper. For me, it literally feels like I am bringing heaven to earth when I write things out. It also serves as a testimony when you can go back and check off things God has done once they’ve manifested.

One of my favorite affirmations is from Darrell Walls, “I am healing, I am strength, and I am authority.” You can start with this one until you write it out your own.

4. I talk to God.

Yeah, Yeah I know prayer sounds like a cliché, but I’m not talking about those pretty prayers. I talk to God like a friend and ask him why certain things are happening in my life. Being honest and bare before him, I let him know I feel weary and defeated. I tell him that I am stressed. I lay it all out. If you wait in prayer, God will respond and give you a Word that you need. A word from the Lord can change your whole state of being. It can put you in a new mental space, give you peace, and build you up. God, my father, is my advocate and my friend.

If you remember nothing else from this post, please remember to wake up in the morning, put your war clothes on, and fight. We know the victory is already won, so that just serves as motivation to keep fighting. It’s a fixed fight. Don’t lay down and take the beating the enemy has set up for you. Get up, make up in your mind that the enemy is a liar, and declare your victory! There will be times when you feel weak or your stamina is running low, but those are the times you pull on the strength of God. His word reminds us that his strength is made perfect in our weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9). And what a blessing it is to have the perfect strength of God fighting on your behalf. You can’t lose and you won’t lose.

“What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us?” (Romans 8:31)

Check out last week’s post here.

Also, here’s a song I love to sing when I’m battling from day to day.